Hurt

Hurt

“I hurt myself today/ Too see if I still feel/ I focus on the pain” – Hurt, Johnny Cash

The silence is deafening

As stare at these four white walls

In hopes of finding joy

My body is empty

My mind… Is numb

I cannot feel joy

The only thing I feel is pain

As I slide the knife down my wrist

In hopes in finding some relief

Nothing comes… Just… Numb

How many times have I let you down?

How many times have I hurt you?

I try to rid of the pain

But I remember it all

I remember your teary eyes

As I tell you to go away

My words are harsh, I know

Everyone I know goes away

I hurt myself today

The knife gripped tight in my hand

As I watch the crimson covers the blade

I wish that I didn’t have to do this

I wish you were here with me

In this thing we call life

But you aren’t

I wish you could join me

In this sweet oblivion

I will make you hurt

I will make you cry

I will… Make you bleed

I will find a way

To have you join me

But until then

I’ll sit in the middle of my floor

Staring at these four white walls

Hurting.